Suicide

Lately, suicide getting famous in Jakarta..
Well, i dunno whats on their mind so they decided to end their own life..
It's a pity.. If sadness n hopeless could be a weapon to kill..

To be honest, i've felt sad, hopeless, empty, useless, n so on.. Even, i wished 2 die.. But, fortunately, i dont have the guts to suicide.. I'm too afraid wit my sins, that i'll get hell if i do it.. But i know as well, my life wont be easy 4 me.. My friend said that n i believe her.. But i realized that i have 2 stay alive as long as i have the time.. Eventhough i cant erase the difficulty of my life.. But, i love my life.. Thank God i still can be wit my mom n my son.. N i'm trying 2 get a better life of myself.. At least, i wanna enjoy all the joy in this world so i wont regret.. :D

Need!

Oalah, tadi alias kemaren ga jadi kemenong2..
Padahal lagi pengen, butuh n harus nonton New Moon.. Kalo mpe telat pasti bakal nyesel berat.. Secara, udah 2x nonton Twilight dbioskop aja, masih pengen lg.. Mungkin kalo q banyak duid, q udah nonton aja dSubtitles.. Ada kan dsana? *ga ngerti juga, lah wong gak pernah*

Moga2 kesampean k bioskop n bs nonton New Moon ASAP.. :D

The Twilight Saga

After i watched Twilight movie, i was so curious to read all 4 novels..
I want to compare the movie n the book..
I love reading novels..
But honestly, I can't afford 2 buy those expensive things..
Fortunately, i found the free e-book of The Twilight Saga..
So, i could read all of those novels..
I was so excited to finish it quickly so i know the whole story..
And my comment was "why is it only 4 books??? I want more.."
So, i think the idea was great.. I love the cullen's family especially Alice n Carlisle.. The relationship, the love, the emotions between Edward n Bella are so deep.. It's really romantic love i've ever know.. When they get married, haha, i love that too..

These 4 books makes me insane.. Like i was there, inside the story..

I really want to watch 3 movies sequel..
Unfortunately, i haven't get the chance yet to watch New Moon.. :(

Envy, Dream..

Watched the infotainment few days ago make me feel envy..
It's about a celeb's engage party.. But, not the party that i envy.. Bout the pre wedding photo session they took before.. That's so beautiful n romantic..

I wonder when will i experience that moment.. With a woman, of course.. Yes, i dreamed about my L wedding..

I never hv a wedding like people did.. N i want my wedding, with my lovely woman..

I dunno when.. I'm still single now, already 9months..
Just hope 4 the best.. ;)

This Morning..

It's 4am..
Still dark outside..
Feeling sleepy actually..
But then, i get hungry..
So i grab my snacks so my stomach will not complain..

I dunno what's bothering me so i won't sleep..